Why Do I Find It Hard?

Why do I find it hard to not to be near you?
Why do I find it hard to not stutter in front of you?
Why do I find it hard to not blush in front of you?
Why do I find it hard controlling myself near you?
Why do I find it hard to ignore you?
Why do I find it hard not to hold you?
Why do I find it hard not to think about you?
Why do I find it hard to say I love you?
Is it that hard?